I'm pretty sure I have the wrong french translation for that game. LOL. Nevertheless, I love it.
I haven't really been true to my word. I apologize. I have been really beat after work and on my days off, I go out. Not much of my life to elaborate on. Like I've said countless times,
my job ate my life.
In any case, I will turn your attention elsewhere by making this entry about something that really has been affecting my life. (Without letting out too much because after all, this is a public site in which the person(s) would be able to read this) I guess it starts with a few questions: How can you live life having everything given to you, yet be so ungrateful? How can you take from those you love, and above all love you, and offer nothing in return? I guess it's my own fault. I have always been the type to be walked all over, it's in my nature to be compassionate.
OVERLY- compassionate at times. And in being so, I open myself up to people who take advantage of me and people who take me for granted. In the end, I lose out on so much more than materialistic belongings. If these were normal circumstances and things weren't so complicated, I would tell you this:
You can only get so far in life by lieing, cheating and basically just being an inconsiderate brat. Everyone has called you out and you choose to do what you do best and run away from it. You need to stop acting like a child and listen to what people want to tell you because most times than none, its things you
NEED to hear. People don't get anywhere in life by stamping their little feet and demanding it. You've taken all you can from the people who cared about you the most and now look where you are? Living the lie that most
respectable people would look at in disdain. Karma does make it's way around - I have to believe it does, and sweetheart, I'm hardly ever wrong about that. I wash my hands clean of you and your manipulative ways. I should have taken the aid of those who actually gave a damn and left you to rot like ths hood rat you will
always be. Not through anyone else's fault but your own. I'm done fighting for you , with you and against you. You know what you did and what you will always manage to do. The big questions is : Will you actually care? Probably not. In the years I've known you and through the words of everyone else who has too,
you have no shame. So you can't force virtue on those who live their lives dedicated to the vices. Even if you didn't lie, who in their right mind can believe you now? Whatever credibility you think you have is false because one day, if not one day too late, you'll look around you and see the disaster that you'll always be apart of and I'm sorry. But I can't give you anything you haven't already cold-heartedly taken from me. It really is a damn shame.
.... and thats word.
What a crazy April Fools.
Im out Xanga.
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" How can you live life having everything given to you, yet be so ungrateful? How can you take from those you love, and above all love you, and offer nothing in return? I guess it's my own fault. I have always been the type to be walked all over, it's in my nature to be compassionate. OVERLY- compassionate at times. And in being so, I open myself up to people who take advantage of me and people who take me for granted. In the end, I lose out on so much more than materialistic belongings."
i feel you, mama!
im glad you do babez!
but also not glad you do coz no one should ever need to feel like that. Most importantly, no person should ever AIM to make a person feel like that.
hey sister, I know what you mean. We don't talk much and I don't visit your house as much as I'd like, but I'm feelin you. I'm really praying that all the negativity will slowly disappear and that one day soon, the healing will start after the events of this blog, and the events of your more recent ones. <3
p.s. I read that book too =P