T R U S T
such a fucking downer.
Isn't is odd how it's so easy to trust those you shouldn't than those whom you should?
...I think it is.
But what would I know?
The more you care about a person , the harder it is to trust them no matter how long it's been since they did you wrong. However, a person who you have mere lukewarm feelings for could take you for a ride and you'd be so willing to let them do it again.
Okay, this doesn't apply to
normal people.
Just me. A sucker for lack of common sense and a fool for overestimation.
Bottom line:
I'd love to trust you more simply because I love to love you.
But I can't. I am diffident in my ability as a girlfriend.
I can't let you have the chance to hurt me.
Because its against our instincts to purposely inflict pain upon ourselves.
And who better to protect me, than me, Right?
BOTTOM LINE:
I trusted you because I didn't care enough about you.
You stole, lied and cheated me and a huge part of me knew it all along.
But seeing as I never really gave a damn about you, it didn't matter.
...well, maybe just a bit.
Because I distanced myself from you, I was able to shake off the hurt and come to the realization
that you're just a sucky person to begin with.
And it did make me feel a whole lot better.
So, can't you see? I'm incredibly good at playing this game.
I just feel sorry for those who don't quite understand the rules.
Not everyone is fortunate enough to be as messed up as I am.
p.s None of this soul searching, self examination bullshit came from watching 3 hours of HOUSE.
My inspiration blatently comes from the couple arguing outside over dinner plans. How quaint.
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